Beauty Is Only Skin Deep | Fake or Bake The Final Chapter

Jacket – WearAll | T-shirt – WearAll | Jeans – WearAll | Boots & Sunglashes – Primark | Bag – YSL

So, after the longest three weeks of my life. A week ago, I finally received my results through the post, of my mole removal and biopsy.

I know three weeks doesn’t sound a lot, but it dragged so much. Every day I’d come home from work and check the post box. Nothing. For three whole weeks! The longer time went on, the more my anxiety built up. Worry and doubt raced through my mind, every day.

When the day finally arrived I was actually at college on the evening at my creative writing course. I checked my phone at break time and I had a text from my Mam telling me the news and a photo of the letter. I’d of course given her permission to open any letters should I not be in the house straight after work.

I could have cried right there and then with total relief. Relief that I could see it, read it with my own eyes, the word ‘non-cancerous’. Happiness, overwhelmingness and luckiness, are the things I felt that evening. I could barely concentrate for the rest of my class, all I really wanted to do was drive home and have a stiff glass of wine to celebrate.

It’s only really when these things happen in life that we really value our lives and appreciate everyone around us, appreciate moments and experiences. I know this sounds a little dramatic because many people, every day get moles removed but it was a period of time, certainly in my life, that felt like my life was flashing before my eyes.

At first, I took the whole situation with a pinch of salt, like oh, I’ll be fine. No biggie, but it is a biggie and the whole prospect of possibly having skin care was terrifying. I talked about the horror when I saw how big my scar was the first time I saw it in my last post but since I wrote that it’s healed so well. Every day it dramatically gets less red and smaller. I am absolutely thrilled with the results and that’s been really positive for me. Makeup virtually covers it all and I’m learning to live with it.

I think the ‘C’ word immediately scares and shocks anyone who hears it in certain circumstances. It’s such a vicious and poisonous word. I hate it. January was a very weird month and period of time for me but I’m just so glad its over and now I can live my life without fear. Some people aren’t so lucky and that’s the reason why I wanted to share this journey with everyone.

I mentioned in the first post, part 1, here, that writing about my experience wasn’t for attention, nor was it for sympathy. I’ve done this to raise awareness. I have built and crafted a platform here on Zest Of Alice of which I can voice my opinions and life turmoils to whoever wants to read it and if I can project this message to at least one young person than I’ll happy.

Looking after your skin, looking after you as a whole, is the most important thing. Self-care is everything.

It saddens and shocks me at how little Melanoma is talked about in the media and I just wonder why isn’t it talked about as much as other cancers? What will it take for it to be talked about? I will continue to bang the drums around Melanoma and do my utmost to spread the word.

From sharing my story, I’ve gotten to know some incredible people, especially the team from MelanomeMe, a local charity who I mentioned in part 1. I am so grateful to have gained their support throughout my journey. They’ve helped me more than they’ll ever know.

My Mam has also been my rock through the whole of this process and without her by my side, holding my hand and wiping away the tears, I would have crumbled. Going through this really made me apperciate the bonds and relaitionships in my life. Mam, I love you!

My boyfriend, who is one of the most laidback people I know, has taken my mind off every bad thought I’ve had in the last three weeks. His attitude to life has certainly rubbed off on me and made me realise that worrying about a situation you can’t change will never make it better, just worse and that it’s just wasted energy. Thank you Jorden, your faith and belief that ‘everything will be fine’ has kept me going. You’re the best!

Life really is too short and now, I’m gonna’ keep myself healthy. Look after myself the best I can, eat good, exercise, sleep and love! Never take anything or anyone for granted in life. I’ll continue being me, my happy and animated self and move on.

Ps, I’d like to say a huge thank you to everyone who’s gone out of their way to drop me a message. It’s been noted and it’s humbled me all of your support and love.

 

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33 Comments

  • Reply Prettiful Blog February 9, 2018 at 2:45 pm

    I am so happy for you! You must have been so relieved. Thank you for bringing awareness to this!

    • Reply Alice February 9, 2018 at 3:41 pm

      Thanks lovely!

  • Reply Lady Writes February 9, 2018 at 8:10 pm

    I’m so happy to hear you’ve got the all clear – it’s such a relief when you’ve been dreading the results x

    • Reply Alice February 12, 2018 at 3:12 pm

      Thank you so much lovely! x

  • Reply Shauna February 9, 2018 at 8:21 pm

    This outfit is so amazing. You’re so brave to talk about all of this, so glad you’re okay!

    Shauna | http://diariesofadramatic.com

    • Reply Alice February 12, 2018 at 3:13 pm

      Thank you so much, Shauna!

  • Reply Chloe February 10, 2018 at 9:40 am

    So happy to hear you got the all-clear! The C Word scares me so much, I would’ve been so nervous in your position. Glad to hear evertutjing is ok ❤️

    • Reply Alice February 12, 2018 at 3:13 pm

      Thank you Chloe! x

  • Reply Yasmina February 10, 2018 at 10:04 am

    I’m so happy that you got the all clear! You should be so proud of yourself for managing to talk about this on your blog. I’m so happy to hear everything is okay now! 🙂 xx

    Yasmina | The July Journal

    • Reply Alice February 12, 2018 at 3:13 pm

      Thank you Yasmina! xx

  • Reply Mel February 10, 2018 at 10:20 am

    That’s amazing news, so happy you can now put your mind at ease having been given the news you were waiting on.

    http://littlemissmelanie.com

    • Reply Alice February 12, 2018 at 3:13 pm

      Thanks Mel!

  • Reply Gemma Louise February 10, 2018 at 1:13 pm

    Oh thank goodness. So brave for sharing your story. My grandad died from melanoma and my dad is covered in moles, I have a fair few too. It’s so scary and definitely should be talked about more. I have a large one under my arm and I need to get it removed. It’s so scary 🙁

    • Reply Alice February 12, 2018 at 3:13 pm

      I agree! Thank you Gemma

  • Reply Maisie February 10, 2018 at 3:37 pm

    So pleased for you sweetness! I can’t imagine the level of relief you felt! Well done for speaking out about the whole process, I really do help it helps to continue to raise awareness! x

    • Reply Alice February 12, 2018 at 3:14 pm

      Thanks Maisie! x

  • Reply Caitylis February 11, 2018 at 7:00 am

    So happy for you! I bet that’s a massive relief off your shoulders, that type of anxiety must have been truly awful. I’m glad you’ve spoken publicly about this. It shows that cancer isn’t just for ‘older people’. It could happen to anyone. Luckily not you!
    Much love, Caitylis x x

    • Reply Alice February 12, 2018 at 3:14 pm

      Thank you so much xx

  • Reply Angela February 12, 2018 at 3:13 am

    Oh i’m so freaking happy for you babe!! The big C word is so scary. I remember this time last year two doctors told they that they thought a lump I had was cancerous – in fact pretty much went out of their way to say that it definitely was – but then when the biopsy results came back it was benign ( Cancer free ) and I remember the incredible wave of relief that I felt. So so happy for you lovely.

    PS. These outfit shots are bangin’! xx

    • Reply Alice February 12, 2018 at 3:14 pm

      So happy for you! Thanks so much xx

  • Reply Rosie February 12, 2018 at 10:10 am

    I’m so glad you got your results back! Wow what a stressful time for you! You’ve been so brave sharing all of this with your readers and I know you’ll have helped so many people!!

    • Reply Alice February 12, 2018 at 3:15 pm

      Thanks Rosie!

  • Reply Robyn February 12, 2018 at 11:49 am

    So so happy you got the all clear! I think you are so brave sharing this story with us but also so inspiring that we can all learn from it and be aware of it.
    You look beautiful in this post! xxx

    • Reply Alice February 12, 2018 at 3:16 pm

      Thanks Robyn! xxx

  • Reply Emily February 12, 2018 at 8:03 pm

    Super happy to hear this great news Alice! Bet you are chuffed x

    • Reply Alice February 14, 2018 at 10:07 am

      Thanks Emily! x

  • Reply Sarah February 13, 2018 at 10:01 am

    I am so glad its nothing bad! great news! and I bet it was such a big weight off your shoulders xx

    • Reply Alice February 14, 2018 at 10:10 am

      Thanks Sarah! xx

  • Reply Chloe February 16, 2018 at 1:12 pm

    I’m so happy you received the all clear! It’s so scary when something like that happens and suddenly life is extremely precious and can change so quickly xx

    http://www.simplychlo.co.uk/2018/02/09/edinburgh/

    • Reply Alice February 19, 2018 at 1:05 pm

      Thank you lovely xx

  • Reply Poppy Mayy February 20, 2018 at 10:51 pm

    I’m so happy for you! But I think these posts have really raised awareness amongst the beauty blogging community which is amazing. Thank you for sharing your story!

    • Reply Alice February 21, 2018 at 1:22 pm

      Thanks Poppy!

  • Reply Gina February 23, 2018 at 12:12 pm

    So happy that the results came back clear! You’re looking absolutely fab – you’re a star for raising awareness on this, it must have been hard to write about xx

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