Beauty Is Only Skin Deep | Fake or Bake Part 2

Jumper Dress – Lasula | Boots – Lasula | Sunglasses – Primark

If you haven’t read Part 1, you can read that first here.

So two weeks ago now, I had my mole removal and biopsy. It was such a weird, surreal and traumatic experience. Maybe I’m being a little dramatic, but it was definitely weird.

I have no problems with going under the knife. I’ve had my fair share of operations, not forgetting my breast enlargement. What really worried me about the removal was the fact that I would be awake throughout whole the procedure.

I headed to Durham University Hospital, feeling very nervous. I waited around half an hour or so and then was called to meet my surgeon who needed me to sign a permission form which stated I understood what was going on and why the removal was happening.

Once the form was signed, I waited 15 minutes and the next thing I knew I was being led into theatre. I asked if my Mam could come with me because I was so frightened but unfortunately she wasn’t allowed. I know I’m 21 and technically an adult but you’re never too old for your Mam to hold your hand and tell you everything’s going to be alright.

I lay on the bed and the nurses began to wire me up! My heart was literally going ninety, I could hear it and see it on the monitor next to me. I was given a local anaesthetic to numb the side of my face where the mole was. My face was then washed by a nurse to make sure it was all clean and then they began to cover up my body plus pretty much all of my face except my jawline where the mole sat. I was so pleased because I certainly didn’t want to see what they were removing the mole with.

Just as the surgeon was about to go in, I was like… ‘I DON’T FEEL NUMB ENOUGH!’ I wasn’t numb like when you’re numb at the dentist, I was just numb in one place of my face. The surgeon explained I wouldn’t know till they’d made the first incision so I just had to trust him!

I was numb enough thank god, I couldn’t feel a thing. It was a mind thing, knowing what they were doing to my face was the scariest part. I immediately felt so overwhelmed as they began, I had an urge to cry my eyes out but I soldiered on and within no time it was all over.

I’m not going to lie, it felt like it went on forever, however, the whole procedure only took around 20 minutes. So it was all over, I was left with my stitches and the waiting game began for my results. My Mam said I was white as a sheet when I came out. It was just a weird situation.

The rest of the day I mooped around and felt sorry for myself. I couldn’t see anything as it had a dressing over it. I was told to just let the dressing come off and when it did cover with Vaseline.

When the dressing did come off three days later, I couldn’t believe the size of it. I’m not sure what exactly I expected to be left with on my jawline but I certainly didn’t expect it to be this big. I know it’s not massive, but it’s not exactly the same size as the mole. I think it was at this point in the process of all this happening that the seriousness of the whole thing really hit me. I definitely didn’t feel my self.

It looked quite gory back then when I look at it in this photo. The stitches make it look far worse than it actually is!

Fast forward to last Monday, after what felt like the longest week in the world. I had my stitches removed. I was really worried about getting my stitches removed as it’s supposed to really hurt getting them out and with six in the side of my face it was very daunting. However it was such a nice feeling getting them removed as they’d started to become very itchy, so when they were cut, I can only describe the sensation as having an itch and it FINALLY being scratched.

After the stitches were removed, obviously the first thing I did was look in the mirror. The scar I’ve been left with is incredibly neat and tidy. Once the redness finally settles and I get lathering it in bio-oil I think it’ll be unnoticeable. I hope it will just blend in with my face. I’ve been putting makeup on and it’s just blends nicely in all honesty so I’m really happy.

I can’t thank the doctors enough for all they’ve done for me! Our NHS really is amazing, isn’t it?! The waiting game is still on, but no news is good news right?! I’m feeling really positive about it, you can’t worry about something you can’t change. What will be, will be. I can’t let it consume my mind at the minute because as far as I feel I’m fine! I’d just like to take this moment to mention how grateful I am for the support I’ve received within the past two weeks, not only from my Mam and boyfriend but from you readers and other bloggers PLUS not forgetting the staff and community within MelonomaMe. You will never know how much it’s meant to me!

I’ll keep you all updated on the results!

 

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35 Comments

  • Reply Sarah January 22, 2018 at 10:46 am

    No news is always good news xx I had to have a thing on my tongue removed under a local and its the most frighting thing ever, not to mention painful afterwards! its good the scar wasnt to bad x hopefully youll only hear good news x

    • Reply Alice January 22, 2018 at 11:14 am

      Thanks Sarah! xx

  • Reply Siobhan Macdonald January 22, 2018 at 11:03 am

    I had a biopsy last week and I felt so nervous too! I totally agree there is no point worrying because we cannot change the outcome, hopefully your news will only be good news!x

    • Reply Alice January 22, 2018 at 11:14 am

      Thanks Siobhan, you too! xx

  • Reply Rosie January 22, 2018 at 12:01 pm

    This post is so amazing!! It’s killed me thinking of you going through this and being so brave to share it!! The scar looks nice and neat and hopefully it heals nicely!!

    • Reply Alice January 22, 2018 at 3:25 pm

      Thank you so much Rosie, your support is everything! xx

  • Reply Emma January 22, 2018 at 12:10 pm

    So pleased you’ve shared this story and are helping raise awareness; the scar should fade easily since it’s small which is good!
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    • Reply Alice January 22, 2018 at 3:25 pm

      Thanks so much Emma, it means a lot! x

  • Reply Lady Writes January 22, 2018 at 2:08 pm

    Babe, you are absolutely stunning and this teeny scar won’t make a difference to that! x

    • Reply Alice January 22, 2018 at 3:26 pm

      Ah thank you so much lovely! xx

  • Reply Angela January 22, 2018 at 4:41 pm

    Try not to worry about the scarring love, it will fade down a lot. Just reading this post I got nervous for you, so I’m glad it went well!

    LOVE your outfit by the way! The boots and the detail on the elbows of the dress are gorge! x

    • Reply Alice January 23, 2018 at 1:28 pm

      Thank you so much! xx

  • Reply Prettiful Blog January 22, 2018 at 4:54 pm

    I had a car accident years ago and had to have 2 stitches in my face. I used a product called Scar science, and the scar on my cheek is barely visible anymore! It takes time, but it will be a part of you, a memory, and much safer than a mole.

    • Reply Alice January 23, 2018 at 1:29 pm

      Oh thanks for the recommendation! So pleased for you xx

  • Reply Emily January 22, 2018 at 9:37 pm

    Just reading about the procedure made my heartbeat higher! I’ve never had an operation or even been to hospital so I dread to think of when I do. Wish you a speedy recovery x

    • Reply Alice January 23, 2018 at 2:44 pm

      Fingers crossed you never need one! Thanks Emily! x

  • Reply Meera January 23, 2018 at 5:56 pm

    Well done for going through with this and sharing your story! I had to have some teeth removed before I had braces and was only under local anaesthetic too! It was terrifying and actually took a whole hour! The whole time all I coud hear were my teeth cracking… it was pretty gross.
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    • Reply Alice January 24, 2018 at 9:20 am

      Thanks so much Meera! Really appreciate your support x

  • Reply Shauna January 24, 2018 at 8:31 pm

    You’re so incredible for sharing this story. I’ve had my own fair share of surgeries and I know how horrific they can be!

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    • Reply Alice January 25, 2018 at 9:25 am

      Thank you so much! x

  • Reply Maisie January 24, 2018 at 9:25 pm

    Wow what a day you had! Well done on seeing it through lovely!! I can’t imagine how scary the whole thing must have been, I would have totally asked if my mum could come in too!! Sending you lots of love xx

    • Reply Alice January 25, 2018 at 9:25 am

      Thank you so much xx

  • Reply Kelly-Anne January 25, 2018 at 10:07 am

    I’m so sad to hear you had such a tough time, I can’t even begin to think what you’re going through.

    • Reply Alice January 25, 2018 at 2:28 pm

      I’ll be fine! Thanks for your support!

  • Reply Caroline January 25, 2018 at 9:28 pm

    You’re so brave! The scar doesn’t look bad at all & at least it’s in a fairly inconspicuous place. Hope everything goes well for you xx

  • Reply last year's girl January 26, 2018 at 11:09 am

    Oh god, the idea of surgery under local anaesthetic terrifies me too. But absolutely, better out than in and I have no doubt it’s going to heal up fine.

    Thanks so much for sharing this story, Alice; it’s a really important thing to talk about.

    x

    • Reply Alice January 29, 2018 at 9:50 am

      Thank you so much! x

  • Reply Gina January 29, 2018 at 8:51 am

    I’m so glad you’re okay! And I’m glad the surgery went okay. It can be so scary going into surgery alone. I’d ball my eyes out if my mum couldn’t come with me xx

    • Reply Alice January 29, 2018 at 9:53 am

      Thanks babe! x

  • Reply Mel January 30, 2018 at 10:10 am

    A really great, honest post from you.
    Any procedure is daunting and can be made worse having to go it alone as it were.

    I love your outfit too!

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    • Reply Alice January 30, 2018 at 3:42 pm

      Thanks Mel 🙂

  • Reply Yasmina February 1, 2018 at 10:02 pm

    Your outfit is gorgeous! I hope your okay and it’s brilliant that your so open for others who may be going through something similar 🙂 xx

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    • Reply Alice February 2, 2018 at 9:15 am

      Thanks babe x

  • Reply Poppy Mayy February 20, 2018 at 6:31 pm

    Reading through your experience really made me scared for you! But I’m so glad it all went well and you’re happy and most importantly healthy.

    • Reply Alice February 21, 2018 at 1:21 pm

      Thanks Poppy! x

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